Adesafitri’s Weblog

I think its too late for feeling so absurd now,I know he will never talk to me again.

You know what is like to have an absurd feelings in the morning ya? Its a feeling of not wanting to do anything eventhough the loads of works waiting to be finish. Dilemma Dilemma…

Okay,so I told you i have a new job,intriguing people around me. I need to get well adapt because i dont wanna loose this one again,enough for me changing places its tiring. But it seems so hard to maintain the good things in life.

Oh Please….

Start a new job in a very big company yet the problem is still the same…social chaos…can i make it?

Day I

Pay attention to your surroundings,are there any wolves ready to eat you and tear you apart?

Day II

Listen carefully for the steps that comes to you…light means heavy pile of shit to threw at you!

Day III

Bow if you need to…

Day IV

Smile…if you want to

Day V

Smoke some cigar with friends…kill em after

Wish me luck heh…

Sleep Well…

I hate my mornings….

I want to escape Indonesia…

Never been appreciate enough…

Small salary

Polutions

Too hot and dry

I dont wanna fight anymore…

I dont wanna push you away…

Im sorry…

I will try hard to change my instability

Promise me you take your time peacefully and think it over

I know I’ll be waiting

I love you,baby

How i missed you last night?

How i wanted you to be in my life more than ever?

What kind of woman i am to you?

How you stolen my heart?

How miserable i am without you?

I wanted you to feel the same like i did when i cant see or touch you?

How many teardrops falls for you since you been away?

…

Yes… I’m silly with all this

Yes… I’m bothering you

Baby… Its just i need you so much

If I had no more time
No more time left to be here
Would you cherish what we had?
Was it everything that you were looking for?
If I couldn’t feel your touch
And no longer were you with me
I’d be wishing you were here
To be everything that I’d be looking for
I don’t wanna forget the present is a gift
And I don’t wanna take for granted the time you may have here with me
‘Cause Lord only knows another day is not really guaranteed

I love you so much…

From Wikipedia :

Love represents a range of human emotions and experiences related to the senses of affection and sexual attraction.^[1] The word love can refer to a variety of different feelings, states, and attitudes, ranging from generic pleasure to intense interpersonal attraction. This diversity of meanings, combined with the complexity of the feelings involved, makes love unusually difficult to consistently define, even compared to other emotional states.

As an abstract concept love usually refers to a strong, ineffable feeling towards another person. Even this limited conception of love, however, encompasses a wealth of different feelings, from the passionate desire and intimacy of romantic love to the nonsexual. Love in its various forms acts as a major facilitator of interpersonal relationships and, owing to its central psychological importance, is one of the most common themes in the creative arts.

Thats only love their talking about…what is True Love ?

Do you know anything about true love? up until now,I haven’t figured out whats the meaning of true love. is it something with passion in it,honesty,sincere,no regrets,no boundaries so on so forth? Theres a myth about love I once heard,its mentioning the balance of the power of suggestion in love,if we have the positive suggestion about love than love wouldn’t hurt us,so is the opposite. Ii know love wouldn’t hurt in every way in every suggestion we have,its ourselves and minds that will use the love terms to hurt each other. Snow wouldn’t kill someone its the nature that we disturbed will. Love exist to heal and to break boundaries…it wont help us to build the wall higher or the bridge longer.

I know I love someone now…we have lots of differences no easy way in this dictionary,even distance is the biggest wall in our relationship. why in the world would I still want to involve myself into it? are there any possibilities in our future? my age isn’t getting younger,He still have the best future to hold. I have no idea whats the reason for all of this beside love…True love on someone’s very straight,caring,big heart,no “bishi bashi”,and his a Leo (yeah…i believe in this kinda stuff).

All i ever wanted is just to make a family of my own. With kids surroundings,laughter,fights,arranging and remodeling the house,take care of the kids and hubby…make a small profit but long lasting home business…ah…sweet remedy from the journey I had in my youth attack moments. I know I wont be able to predict whose gonna be my hubby and my kids dad,but is it wrong to put a hope in someone you love and do you think its hurtful if your hope is failing? its not,it means that you still haven’t found what your looking for.

True love lets you cry and sobbed…but true love also gave you the power to move on and keep the good memories from all the adventure you had before. True love knows the limit when you should embrace God Almighty,True love held you close in the hardest moment and True love does not give you anything but fun moments even if when you’re making the wrong decisions.

So people,start digging your love dictionary to find out what your version of True Love means. I know I have found mine.

Cheers!